"Why in the fuck did you start a blog?"

Why did i start a blog? I get asked that quite a bit and for the longest time, I didn't know how to put it into words. I still don't know to put into words, but here is my maybe-sad attempt at it. Those who know me now? know someone completely different than who I was a child. As a child? I didn't speak. I was borderline MUTE. If you ask my mom, she will tell you, I was the strangest child. Instead of playing outdoors with the other kids, I preferred to be inside listening to the adults speak. She says i would just sit there... like a little doll, with my big eye rounds, listening. I was soooo afraid to speak, I used to beg my older sister to say "trick or treat" for me on Halloween because I was too afraid. She would literally say "My little sister says trick or treat too" at every. single. door. You can't make this shit up folks! My mother and sister will attest to my odd ball ways.
 
If you told my family then, I would grow up, enlist the military, have children young, and start telling complete strangers my life story? They would say you are fucking nuts.
 
I don't remember at what point in life I decided to open my mouth but it happened. Somewhere along the way, I stopped being quiet. Somewhere along the way, my attitude got rough and my tongue got sharp. I think I am an introvert still, still quiet most of the time, still awkward. The only difference is now? If you give me a platoon to lead or a conference to run I won't run and hide. I will stand up and get it done by whatever means necessary. I give the attitude I receive and if you ask ten people to describe in one word? you will get 10 different answers.
 
SO why start a blog...I am just an ordinary girl from a small town who has done some semi-cool shit. I'm shocked and grateful that I have the readers I do. I am not Instagram famous or drop dead gorgeous, or crazy talented. I am as simple as fuck, and I am just like everyone else.
 
GUESS WHAT? THAT'S EXACTLY WHY I STARTED A BLOG.
 
I am an employee, a mom, a soon to be wife. I am a daughter, a friend, and an enemy. There are things I'm great at, and things I completely fuck up. In a world FULL of everyone flaunting how much better they have it then everyone else I figured, why not be a voice for those of us normal girls? We all go through the same shit, we all do our best to raise our kids, we all tell ourselves "I need to lose some weight", we all do our best at work or school even if we don't love it. We all try to be the best girlfriend or wife. We have all had our hearts broken at least once. Despite our differences, we are all the same. That's the fucking beauty of it.